Mail phobia
Remember that movie House of Sand and Fog? In the beginning of the movie, Jennifer Connelly’s character is surprised and outraged to learn she is being evicted from her home. She didn’t know she was being mistakenly charged for unpaid taxes – and therefore evicted – because she never opened her mail.
I’ve only seen the movie once (this is not the type of movie you watch more than twice, unless you want to feel very, very depressed) but that scene with the unopened mail has always stuck in my head!
I dread opening my mail, especially now that I have started paying back my student loans. The student loan companies send you mail almost everyday of the week. One letter tells you how much interest you have collected. The next letter tells you they are capitalizing the interest. The next letter offers you consolidation. The letter after that tells you what your bill will be – but it’s not a bill. And the final letter is the bill – but by that time you are so confused with it all you don’t know what you’re reading anymore.
All of that on top of my normal credit card bill, 4 or 5 credit card offers a week, tons and TONS of catalogs – ahh! I have never seen so much wasted paper in my life! Nor have I felt so confused!
So, I dread opening my mail. My heart rate speeds up and I start to feel all flustered. I have to open it all at once – or none at all. I have to be prepared for it.
Sometimes I am the same way with email – at home and at work. I see an email from a certain person and I think, “Oh no. What do they want? Do I even want to open this?!”
I am lucky Steven takes care of our joint bills and handles our bank account!