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By kilax, February 3, 2012 5:05 am

What would be in your ideal trail mix?

Steven bought this awesome tropical trail mix a few weeks ago. And I picked all the fruit out of it (picked around the tree nuts). 

I assumed me doing that was sort of annoying, so I bought individual bags of the things I would want in my ideal trail mix – banana chips, pineapple chunks, golden raisins, dried mangoes, and cocktail peanuts. I think the only thing missing is chocolate chips!

Gosh. Now I really want to add some chocolate chips.* 

It seems my trail mix is all about the sweet tastes with a slight hint of salt. Is your mix on the sweeter or saltier side?

*I actually wrote this post last Sunday. I added chocolate chips on Wednesday – no bueno. Chocolate chips not necessary.

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By kilax, February 2, 2012 5:24 am

• I am unfairly hard on (read: a bitch to) a few people in my life for no (really good) reason. I won’t go in to the details, but will say I need to work on this. As someone who is often the brunt of someones bad mood… well, I don’t want to be known as that person.
• Food confession – the healthier I eat the more obsessed I become with buying food and stocking up on it. It’s like I am testing myself (case in point – all the stuff I brought home from HyVee last weekend – some was for friends, but come on). This may or may not be (mentally) healthy behavior. Actually, I know it’s bad. It eventually leads to a binge. No more of that. 
• I think I want to learn how to box. For realz. 
• Or maybe be a ninja. Have you played Fruit Ninja on the Xbox Kinect? Fun times! We tried it at my brother-in-law’s (BiL) on Sunday (me and my BiL below).

• Congrats to everyone who signed up for the Chicago Marathon! It’s an amazing race! I did not sign up. I am not planning on signing up for a marathon until I get to a healthy weight and keep it off for awhile. That does not mean I am not doing long runs – I am just not training for a marathon.
• For dinner last night Steven made BBQ Soy Curls! They were so good and easy to make! I think even I could make them (if you are new to my blog, you should know that my husband does all the cooking). All Steven did was let the soy curls soak in water, then saute them with BBQ sauce. 

• Data has been so needy and talkative (more than normal) since we got back from Kansas City. I think he actually missed us!

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By kilax, February 1, 2012 4:33 am

I almost didn’t post this here, but what the heck! I can be honest on my blog.

Also, this post is about binge eating – if you find that triggering, please skip this post!

I ate so much snacky food Saturday afternoon that I could not finish my dinner – my stomach hurt that bad (and it was vegan masala that I really wanted to finish – from a restaurant in Kansas City that also serves meat, hmm, imagine that).

I was really upset by this – not that I couldn’t finish dinner – but that I was so full I physically hurt. I felt dizzy and light-headed and my stomach ached. That had not happened to me in a long time. I had been doing so well with my eating. Sure, I had little mini binges on food now and then, but nothing that made me feel this way.

It’s not carrots I am binging on!

I need to figure this out NOW before it gets out of control or I am going to forever be in a cycle of lose weight/gain weight, up and down.

I am going to try to go the entire 29 days of February without binge eating, and see what happens from there. And binge eating is not to be confused with overeating or indulging – I am okay with those things. Binge eating is described as (from wikipedia):

Binge eating is a pattern of disordered eating which consists of episodes of uncontrollable eating. It is sometimes as a symptom of binge eating disorder or compulsive overeating disorder. During such binges, a person rapidly consumes an excessive amount of food. Most people who have eating binges try to hide this behavior from others, and often feel ashamed about being overweight or depressed about their overeating.

When I binge eat, I feel out of control, like I cannot stop putting food in my mouth. It usually starts with a craving for something sweet, then salty, then sweet, then salty, until I eat enough that my stomach hurts and I feel confused and dazed that it all just happened. 

Generally, I don’t like making monthly goals. But I am putting this out there for accountability. So feel free to ask me how it’s going. Or not!

(I do think I will put a little widget on the side to track my binge free days Updated to add – I took this down because it was not helping me)

Hey! Let’s celebrate something cool! I ran 142 miles in January! In January of 2011, I ran less – 86.8. The running year is off to an awesome start! Maybe I won’t have any months under 100 miles this year. That would be cool. But I want to be smart. So I won’t make that a goal.