It feels like it should be Saturday

By , July 6, 2008 10:34 pm

I still have nothing nice to say.

I skipped blogging for a whole week, because every thought entering my head that I deemed “blog-worthy” could also have been labeled “negative,” “whiny,” or “bitter.”

Ugh. I’ve just been feeling so on edge, like I have all this built up tension… over what? I don’t know what.

I really looked forward to the three-day weekend, and the mini-vacation with my family. And I had a great time, but don’t feel relaxed like I thought I would. I still feel jumpy. And anxious. And even… hostile?

This is really something I want to get away from. I just don’t know how.

12 Responses to “It feels like it should be Saturday”

  1. Christina says:

    Just donk it man. Fo’ real. Whenever you feel like this. Donking is the way to go.

  2. Jodi says:

    I’ve been the same way for a few months now…
    Here’s what I’m going to do about it. I’m going to take time to write about something that I’m thankful for every day. Kind of like an online version of a gratitude journal. There is so much in life to be happy about. Sometimes we just have to look a little harder to find those things.
    🙂

  3. kilax says:

    Christina – You’re so donkin’ right. Why didn’t I donk of that?!

    Jodi – I’ve been trying that – mentally – 24/7. I know I have a lot to be grateful for, but all these little things seem to be building up. I try to push them away, but I am not sure if that is the right thing to do!

  4. Nilsa says:

    The thing about your blog is … it’s all yours. So, if you’re down in the dumps, why shouldn’t you write about it? It’s your due right and anyone who doesn’t like it can go suck it.

  5. Andrew says:

    I believe the old adage is “write what you know.” So, if you know negative, whiny and bitter… go with it! You’re not going to scare anyone away.

  6. Cat. says:

    I’m with you on the anxiety, and definitely with Nilsa, but I know that after awhile I get tired of hearing my whiny voice in my head and on my blog. I’ve spent most of the last 6 months feeling anxious and crabby. The only thing that helps is being outside, soaking in the sun, driving (so much for the price of gas!), and getting at least one productive thing done each day.

    Hang in there!!!

  7. kilax says:

    Nilsa – I agree with you… and I wish I could just write about all of it… but I already have so many negative people in my life that I am trying NOT to be like, I think writing about it only makes me feel worse.

    Andrew – I’m just not as eloquent as you when it comes to bitchin’ and moanin.’ Lol.

    Cat. – You know EXACTLY what I mean – I am so frustrated with my “inside” whinyness in my head, that I don’t want to write about it as well. I do have a lot of fun things going on this week, so I am going to keep that in mind! 🙂

  8. If you feel like being whiny and angry on your blog – do it! It will probably make you feel better! I think you need atleast a WEEK vacation to help pull you out of your mood!

  9. martymankins says:

    I’m still in a crappy ass mood knowing my scooter was working until the service guys f-‘kd it up for me. I didn’t really feel like blogging, but I figured after all of the drinking I did over the weekend, I might as well share my sadness with others.

    Those of is loyal kilax blog readers would read and comment, regardless of how you felt. Maybe a spelling correction or two would eke out. 😉

  10. diane says:

    Nilsa’s comment made me feel better–because I feel like all I do is whine about not feeling well on my blog! Why would anyone want to read that? :p

  11. kilax says:

    Gina (Mannyed) – Are you sure ONE WEEK will be enough? 😉

    martymankins – I felt so angry when I read about that on your blog, I didn’t even know what to say! Shall we be upset together?

    diane – We want to read it because we care about you! Plus, last week you had the funny Rock Band story 🙂

  12. martymankins says:

    Yes, we can be angry together. Still hoping to get my scooter back sometimes before the end of this week.

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