Here I go, again
Hanging my 5K runner’s bibs tags on my closet wall was supposed to make me feel proud and motivate me…
… so why haven’t I run one since April 19th?
Of course, as soon as I started working, I stopped running. I wake up at 5:15 am each weekday, and REFUSE to wake up earlier than that to run! And when I get home around 7:30 pm or later, and still have to eat dinner, I don’t feel like running on a full stomach or getting my heart rate back up right before I go to bed.
But lately, with everyone talking about losing weight and staring to exercise again, I am starting to feel motivated. More importantly than that, I am missing how much I enjoy running and how good it makes me feel.
I want to go for it again. I am just afraid of not sticking with it. Again. I’m afraid of failure.
Themocracy
Don’t be afraid of failure. Be afraid of bears.
I am reading this at 5:00am as I sit here in bed eating Snack-Pack Chocolate Pudding as a pre-breakfast appetizer.
Breakfast will undoubtedly be more chocolate pudding once I manage to climb out of bed in three hours.
Hopefully this motivational story about my getting out of bed for breakfast will inspire you to fulfill your aspirations to get out of bed and train to run a race…
…though I’m not sure how.
Don’t be afraid. We will be here cheering you along!!
I totally understand how hard it is to keep exercising when you have such a long and crazy day. Is there a gym near your office that you could go to on your lunch break? (if your day is anything like E.’s, you probably don’t even get a lunch break, but if you can pull it off it’s a nice break in the day…)
i know what you mean… it seems like exercise is just one more thing i have to try to squeeze into my day… but i am becoming more motivated to at least try to eat better… i’m going to the grocery store tonight after work…
i want to start weight watchers back… but like you, i’m scared of failure… but we’ll be here supporting you!!!! 🙂
You Can Do It!! ( I swear I don’t sound like Rob Schneider from Water Boy)
I am joining a Yoga class on Friday (new one will open in our neighborhood then) to motivate my butt to go (to expensive not to). I was doing it at home but then I didn’t stick to it well and let’s just say I don’t think I can make myself do it. So, I stick to it, you stick to it!!! We will check in on each other 🙂
Just remember, if you don’t try you already failed (ok read that out of a cheesy calendar but it does hold some truth)….I would just add in different way 🙂
Ok, that is all the motivational things I can think of LOL (really need to dig back out my Rhonda Bitten books).
all the things we don’t do because of the fear of failure. i do that too! sometimes i just think to myself, when i come to die will i regret not doing x, y or z? and most of the time when the answer is yes, i get off my ass and do it. it takes being morbid! ha ha.
Ryan – I am more afraid of the coyotes than the bears.
Dave2 – now I am just motivated to be more like you. I saw some pudding the other day and thought of you. Ha ha.
diane – This is NOT an excuse, but this is the truth. I asked for a key to our building gym when I started working here and never got one. (Even though those starting after me did 🙁 ) Since October though, it is implied that we are expected to work through our lunch breaks and put in 48 hour weeks. 🙁 I would rather work through lunch then get home EVEN later 🙁 We do have a treadmill at home though.
CourtneyInControl – Exactly – how am I going to squeeze one more thing into my already packed schedule?! I already don’t have time to do laundry, wash dishes, or RELAX!!!! ARG 🙁
Felicia – lol, you crack me up 🙂 That’s so true though – if I don’t try, I’ve already failed! Let’s see how I do tonight… and let’s see how you do with yoga!
sizzle – that is a good point. I used to think, “I have all my life to get healthy!” But what if I really don’t?!
I’m the same way. I got into running about 8 years ago — lost 50 pounds and ran a marathon. I not only gained all the weight back, I did it twice!
This time, I have an “extra” 20 pounds to get back down to my running weight. Sheesh.
I understand what you mean about trying to find time in your day to exercise – it’s tough. I’m lucky that there is a gym in my office building so I can go before work or on my lunch. Hopefully you can figure out a way to get back into it – exercise feels so good once you’re doing it regularly…
Failure is bad but nothing to be afraid of. I think the reason they’re not motivating you is because you have a very well developed brain. And said brain is telling you that running is stupid. 😉
ajooja – I wish it wasn’t so easy to fall into this pattern. You and I seem to be suspect to it 🙁
suze – You are so right – once I start, I am hooked! Then it is all I think about, and I feel great… I just need to work it into my schedule and get into a routine.
kapgar – my brain is telling me “you survived until now without exercise! Why start?!”
I also feel that, based on cold hard proof from a poor track record, I won’t stick with something physical that I start. This really gets me in my own way big time. I chastise myself, I get angry and despondent. I go do things sporadically when I feel good, then fail to capitalize on that, never truly getting on the wagon. I am always working at finding answers and solutions to this to help me get going for good.
Your brain is quite intelligent. Heed it.